Hello my name is Clarissa and I had couple of weeks of chaos but in a refreshing way…
I am not the kind of person that leaves for lack of attention but there have been times in my life where I need to refocus on things. For the past year I felt really lost and without direction. It made me really frustrated at myself so I felt needed sometime alone to rethink, and reevaluate a lot of things and views I had about myself.
So late last year I made the drastic decision to bow out of a lot of social media outlets I had enjoyed (i.e. Facebook, Instagram) because I didn’t think I serve a purpose to anyone nor to myself. I just felt like I have gotten to a breaking point of being so overwhelm with things I just wanted to run away with my Verbot to a deserted island and never make any form of human contact again.
However during this hiatus away from those outlets it finally made me question myself:
Who am I? What do I love? What do I want to do? Who is Clarissa?
But then something happen I slowly realize those answers to those questions and becoming more ok that that ones I did not have answers for that was fine because I will always be a work in progress.
I am becoming better with being different and not having to fit in.
I am ok with who I am as a person, and dancing to the beat of my own drum:
I am finding and reconnecting with interests I had in the past and finding out new ones:
Then I had a lot of people reach out to me over the time I was away from social media and I didn’t feel as alone and overwhelm with things. It made me feel love and like I matter.
Thank you to everyone that has lend an ear, a text or a email to me. It has meant so much to me.
This experience has taught me that sometimes you need to take a time out for yourself. Life is short, life is precious. Make it the best one you have. Fill it with good people, travel to unknown places. Make a life that you would be proud to call yours.
I have been constantly updating my wordpress and will be starting a novella in February.